Friday, June 27, 2008

JUST A MORNING THOUGHT


At points I feel like I'm held back in society from doing or saying the things that come to mind. Like why cant I just walk up to that bum on this train and beat the shit out of him for stinking up the whole car? I paid my $2 fare, why must I endure this horrid smell. Will I be arrested for assualt if I attack this man for smelling so bad and taking up a whole bench on the train? Maybe, Maybe not -

And why is this 16 year old girl dressed like a stripper? Where are this girls parents? As I took a closer look at her cherry red lips, I notice she has layers on top of layers of make-up. Just off of this I can tell this girls parents are either on drugs, alcoholics or they simply both work and need to be at work early in the morning, which gives this little 16 year old whore the chance to dress like this. I should reach in my pocket and pull out a dollar for her, do you think its wrong if I tell her what I think?

Why is everybody reading the New York Post today? Yesterday it was the Daily News today its the Post. My eyes keep wandering, and I catch eye contact with maybe the prettiest girl on the damn train. Eye contact for maybe 5 seconds, but she turns away. I wonder what she was thinking, maybe I should go ask her. Would I be wrong if I tell her shes beautiful? Most likely shes married with 2 kids, just look at her - shes dressed on some professional shit, no tattoos on her neck - you could tell she not from the "hood". She has her black designer purse and a little work briefcase - yea I know her mindstate is nothing like the 16 year old whore. I give this lady uhhmmm 26, 27 the oldest - but she focoused, I can tell. But as I look around, I can tell every other guy on the car has the same thing on their mind. Look at homie, bopping to his Ipod thinking hes cool all in her face, thats not smooth mannn. I rather try my luck and speak to her rather than looking like a complete asshole and bopping my head and signing along with my Ipod. I think he should focuse his attention on that 16 year old stripper he'll probably have a better chance.

Its funny the things you come across on the train in the morning time, I wonder what these people think of me - Fuck it, this is my stop....!!!!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

"The Last Days"

50 SHOTS RANG......
HIT THE BACHELOR AND HIS MANS.....
BUT WHO'S GETTIN' CHARGED.....
WHEN THE COPS ARE IN CHARGE......


Its official the last days are amoung us, but how will it end? With the polar caps melting away and with our country at war (with half the world), my only question is will nature show her wrath or will man end it all?

Its official the last days are amoung us, just tune in to the news. Babies being killed, old ladies getting raped. We got HOMICIDES, SUICIDES, GENOCIDE.....but wait, I really dont think theres enough liquor in my system, to break down in parts our society and children. Now adoption is the new trend and Brittney got some new friends, but my question is how this makes the front page? When niggas are at war, getting slaughtered in a battle they should've won a year ago.

The last days are amoung us, let the A-BOMBS drop. North Korea waiting patiently for Bush to pop. The last days are amoung us, just step outside. They say osama is dead, I say Bush is alive. They say Castro's on his death bed, I say Hugo Chavez is on the rise. They say they tired of living, I say I'll sleep when I die.

Its official the last days are amoung us, do your thing while you can. To all the piegon toe hoes keep sucking the cock. To all the die hard hustlers keep hugging the block. To all the gangbangin' fellas keep busting em' shots. To all the hardcore drinkers keep guzzling shots. To all the drug addict niggas keep smoking the pot, or whatever you do coke, pills, H or rocks. To all kingpins and ballers keep getting that guap. To all the wanna be's, keep acting like something your not. To those in jail cells keep holding your head and to that 9 to 5 crowd keep getting that bread.

The last days are amoung us................

Train Of Thoughts

Todays society is built on manipulation...the worlds Government have enslaved us to think otherwise...Gods children have no choice but to drown in da filthy ways of the Earth...manipulation is everyday life...and tho im against all da foney illusions on this planet...I myself have been challenged...but its ok because I have figured out that da potion to cure this madness is acceptance...once you accept the facts of this dirty world you will then be able to maneuver incredibly...I am now able to adapt to my physical environment...My identity has been hidden...to the point that i myself dont even know who i really am...I have been born again...I know that there are many of you out there tend to be confused...not by me but by the world itself...I dont blame you because I to was blind...I was just fortunate enough to accept it...cuz once u do that...you will grow deeply...i have joined forces with the powers that be...right now as you read this your mind is roaming...its free of all thoughts because of a distraction...you just dont know...your subconcious thoughts can be frozen 4 da moment being because this...I on the otherhand dont need a distraction...my mental state of mind is forever free...i my friend live a life far to difficult to understand and so i have become this creature...there has not been a name yet created for it...and Im not the only one for they one be standing right be4 your eyes...so ladies and gentleman welcome to my blog...ull be seein a lot more of me...and pay attention cuz u might learn sumthin...you dont wanna miss out...1

Men Cry

It is said 4 a man is not to cry....4 his heart should be made of stone and should be taken upon himself to neva let break...all obstacles and struggles in dis lifetime shall be taken...strived and acted upon strongly...a man is supposed to brought upon this world as a high individual...a lot more stronger than a female creature...to me...its all a stereotype...I myself have been put threw many obstacles in this lifetime...many of which Im surprised that I got threw...I have dropped so many tears in this life...if i had a penny for each one GOD know where Id be...far from rich... amazingly i have survived many of my troubled past...my emotionally disturbed life is da cause of a lot of my negative actions and much of my split personality...i have many sides to my soul...some of which is uncontrolable...but what can I say..I am what I am...In the eyes of this superior beings body that I carry my soul in I dont think that theres any man out there that can deny the salty water comin from their eyelids in the times of a beings worst...cause even I cant...I have come from da pits of snakes and da point f no return to where as i feel I would neva come back...and it was then dat i realized.....MEN CRY.......

To My First Love

How can u hate a person from 1 second to another...after all the years you known me...now the time has come for us to depart and go our seperate ways...you have done a lot...those of good and evil...you have helped me learn the ways of this mysterious world...you have taught me to be a man...you actually played a part in the creation of the being that i stand as today...I tend to lose my patience at times but you taught me it is needed...you gave me confidence,swagger,you got me fresh...taught me how to distinguish real from fake...my whole style is created by your works...my whole persona...but on the other hand...you put me in jail...almost got me killed...made people hate me..envy me...filled them with jelousy...trickery and kanivance...you have tried to make me swallow my pride...at one point stripped me of it till i had none...you gave me drugs...you made me an alchoholic...you stripped me of my family...because of you i was homeless once...you took it all...gave it back and took it again...you introduced me to shame,distress,emotional agony,excruciating pain,i cant describe in words all you have put me threw...does it add up...nope...you know why....because its not math...its science...to be understood for those that dont...i dont fully understand yet...i have yet to learn...but i have learned enough...enough about you to know well enough that me and you can never again be 1...me and you are not compatible and i dont think i can ever compromise nor will i ever stoop myself down to your dirty ways...so as much i hate to say it...good bye STREETS ...until the day we meet again...

Strive For Continuous Growth

When will I be satisfied...when I had nuthin..I wanted sumthin...when I got sumthin I wanted more...and still til dis day I want more...when will I be satisfied???it seems dat us as the Human race will neva reach a point of complete satisfaction...or do I speak for myself???I think greatful would be the word I will use...yes I am greatful for da positive outcomes that are placed in my life thus far...but am I satisfied???Absolutely NOT!!!Otherwise I would be completely comfortable with my position in life and be able to live the rest of it as if...but NO...Being greatful with what one has and the strive for continuos growth is a natural aspect of ones mind...some are not even greatful at all...some just look at the negative aspects played in their life...but u have to be greatful...otherwise how will u ever move on...they say if its not broken don't fix it...but dey don't say if its not broken don't make one better do they???So remember...don't jus look at the negative happenings in your life...but be greatful for da positive...and continue to grow...in whatever way possible...or whatever way u feel is needed....It syour Life...and if u have control over anything...YOUR LIFE IS DEFINITELY IT!!!

AM I ALONE?

DOES ANYONE FEEL THE WAY IM FEELING?

GLOBAL WARMING?
ALIENS?
CLONING?
GAS PRICES?
ECONOMY?
JOBS?
HYRDOGEN CARS? WTF YO

HOW YA FEEL ABOUT THIS?
ANYONE FEELING THE WAY IM FEELING?

THE PURSUIT: BEGINNINGS

I have always known or felt that there was more to life than just birth, school, work and DIE!
More to life than everything in between like relationships, money, family, toys, sports and all the other MEANINGLESS distractions we have around us.

WHAT IS LIFE?

Sometimes I sit at home and just think about DEATH. It is really going to happen and it is the one thing that cannot be stop by you, me, him or her. It scares me to think about it but fascinates when I do think about it. A double edged sword.

I seem never to be able to do things right or just keep people happy. Is this just me? I make others smile and bring them joy but I am always sad and depressed inside. I am never satisfied. am I ALONE on this one?

Seems as if I never complete goals, I just keep digging and digging and digging. I honestly want to be doing much much more with my life. I want to look for something or see something. Do something completely out the NORM. Maybe that’s my purpose in LIFE. Maybe I need more out of it or should I say of what I have left of it.

Am I RANTING?

There are so many unanswered things in this LIFE that I want to know about. GOD, is there one. Is this a cycle? Can this cycle be broken? The CYCLE which I speak of is the CYCLE of LIFE. Birth, live and learn and DIE. What can I do to change this cycle? What can I do with my life to really turn things around? I need answers, I need explanations, and I need CLOSURE.

The time is now...

THE PURSUIT BEGINS HERE

Monday, June 23, 2008

Day & Night

BY THE TIME THIS IS DONE
YOU GONNA NOTICE YOU ALONE SON
WHO KEEP THEY WORD, WHO'S RIGHT AND WHO'S THE WRONG ONES
WHO HOLDS YOUR HAND THROUGH WAR, WHO THE STRONG ONES
YOU DONT SEE IT NOW...THEN YOU'LL SEE IT IN THE LONG RUN

DAY.....
Camofauluged in my suit and tie....
My desk are the sandbags I use as my shield....
Co-workers comrades....
My enemy is work....
My weapons are my pen, a computer and a phone....
A race against time....Day-dreaming of home....
I smile and I greet....Politely pretend.....Simply to blend....
I harbor my thoughts....
White collar, Blue Collar....In this world I'm lost....
Behind enemy lines....
A hostage, prisoner of a company....
I've been told what to wear....and how I'm expected to act....
I've been censored....
Balancing myself on a fine line....
I've been tamed like a wild lion....
And this is how I feel every day once the sunrise....


NIGHT.....
Comfortable in my jeans and hoody....
My block is my fort I use as my cover....
My friends are my brothers....
My enemys are frauds and those who oppose....
My weapons are my mind and my hands....
Love for my fam....Hate is apart of man....
A race against time....Deaths around the corner....
Marijuana aroma....alcoholic beverages....
Pissy hallways and a stench of cigarettes....
A do-rag....A hat with the brim to my nose....
Cement feelings, with an expression of stone....
A daughter to raise....And got to satisfy my wife....
So I sacrifice my life....And works taking a toll, lost my appetite at nights....
Family in the struggle....Most of my friends hustle....cops rush the block every night trying to cuff you....
But yet I feel secure....
I aint a hostage nor a prisoner to the streets....
These are my grounds..where I was raised, where I eat...
Tasted victory and I tasted defeat....
Unleashed and feel free, once I take one breath
And this is how I feel every night once the sunsets....